In memory of Leonard and Gaylene
I was standing behind the red velvet curtains, of the great portal
From there all of the dead new city could be beheld I heard Kristin say
She may love you still, my friend She may love you till there are stars no more She may love you longer than forever She may never forgive or forget.
It was you, after all, remember, that asked her to leave.
Kristin had said to much :
I thought, turning, I encountered Leonard’s eyes, as he smiled
Trying hard to fight the tears, that never fell. I returned his smile, my own fear swelling inside – her words cutting through, I hoped it would ease his pain.
Knowing nothing, save death. In her arms, would do, Kristin interrupted my thoughts, to remind me – not always in death, is there freedom, from the pain love can leave at it’s going Her eyes, reaching through my defensive’s, penetrating into locked memories.
How quickly you, are here, beside me.
She was leaving the crystal hall when she stopped without turning to see his face, and said, some here are forever Leonard
I wanted to scream, for him – for me – for Kristin’s wit to sharp at times.
Ten thousand year’s later ;
Leonard would be flying in man’s bird, to what is now the Ivory coast – some called it, Abidjan, once, we knew it as Zatila, they all went down.
That dam jungle, that awful place Kristin whispered silently
We all went;
Perhaps one of us would find him. Perhaps he would not choose
Thoth’s touch, to ours surely.
We d spot some thing my own thoughts raced back, to that evening at the Emerald Castle
We found the wreckage, and accounted for all;
How ever no trace of Leonard was among them –
Oh, my, Kristin’s voice broke the stillness of the night, It was
the first words, in a thousand years I’d heard pass over her lips.
And I could see why upon reaching the flight deck
Kristin”s voice holding back the horror, as she asked, is that blood ZA?
Yes my love, it is blood. The twisted steel seam to laugh at our
fear, as from outside, the other s called, they had found his sliver
Ankh, on the edge of the river.
He would never leave that Za never, It was hers’!
I know Kristin, I know.
Look at his map ZA . is that – too?
Oh my, uncontrollable now the apprehension in her voice.
Falling Through time, again, once again. So close now, so close to the end, so close to never again.
Years ago, many years and millions of miles from here, and a thousand tears cried to empty spaces, finding me still, looking for her unshielded the blackness mix with cold pouring rains falling along Sand Bridge.
I can’t tell you anymore about my life that is not about her.
You see all I ever, never wanted was to was her, all the time, from the first moment across dark noisy smoke filled December nights, sun down approaching.
The snow already a foot high as we sat there not speaking words, just feeling all the spaces between us.
Her hand in mine, so strange a familiar thing, we just looked at each other, a remembering, you know a moment in time.
Her skin smelt like everything I was searching in my dreams.
I felt as if I had to died at that moment and the only sensation I could take with me was her eyes, it would almost be enough.
I would have fought all the gods to have just once more her lips pressed to mine, at my life’s end, a last time, forever, as my eyes close in all the forever’s to come.
The sea dark black and the warm cooled sands, kissed by shadows of loves ghost and she is there, close to me, no more stars in my room when spring falls through closed windows.
My life had always been for her pleasure, now what?
You can’t ever say how these feelings will feel to your soul, till night finds you alone at the edge of the abyss.
By Lafayette © 2019
What is it that now keeps you from me?
In who arms’ are you safer than in mine? Was not our love , prophecy ?
Am I not the one who caught your tears , and held you when you were afraid of the night’s strangers?
Where is it that you keep safe now ?
In what land can you not feel my love calling to your soul?
Can you not say my arms – are not your life’s song?
Come to me , when it is safe.
Before times end find’s me , alone.
Come to me when it is safe , for you to love me freely.
Again and again in forever , into the tomorrows of our forever’s.
Love is every much a thing of openness when you are the goal. I watched you surrender to their vision of who , you were More , who they thought you should become. Where are you now ? Where are you when I need to show you much.
The forest before us now.
I am to blame , this is common we both agree OK. Fine. OK fine – can you hear me? OK. Fine
Come into my open arms , you don’t have to say words of love .
I want you. I’ve always wanted you.
I never wanted anyone one else ,
Since before our eyes first met
I can tell, you might want me as much
In this moonless-lit night
I can feel the warmth the wetness glistening Pouring over.
I feel your touch when midnight finds me wide open In dreams.
My love falling hard
Like the rain of a chrysanthemum spring.
Where my tears fall, what hold is this
That so many so many lifetimes
Away from our world the seas such a lovely shade of Pink.
How can I speak of love to you , my most cherished love
For it is this world , where I stand looking at the starving children Searching the mounds of stench and steam For crumbs to feed whole worlds We would meet.
In this land of our father’s , fathers , yours – mine
All the same.
They fight! They kill us
As well as themselves
And now in our beloved forest Smoke rises higher Perhaps to late the song to free us now In this the land of our birth
Hidden is our love.
Better than in the ridicule of their eyes , my beloved.
For now even to be found in light of day
Is to play with the dice of the demon gods.
Your eyes , my skin
Here before you I stand bathed in the sliver of my armor.
Your love. It’s death.
How can a love that spilled over
Into yesterday so many life times ago
Stand so firm now?
On this point that you are so right of opinion.
To give away one’s heart
Is not all ways an easy thing
When put into practice
The reality of the imaged lost , gripes
At each man’s soul.
I suppose you would like it better
If I spoke of the death of that world below
Than of my love for you.
In your eyes that only makes me weak.
Forgive me , I forgot why it was
I had to be the one.
You stood before me and I thought you could tell.
I thought you , could feel
Feel how lost I was.
How far into your love
like the quicksand
Of those river banks , along the Salt , I was swallowed whole.
OK . OK all ready.
It was once call the garden of all worlds.
The jewel of all the Creators’ handy work.
The advance life , worked not for goodness of the whole
Instead they lived alone.
They took all their garden could give.
“Where are their now?” Don’t rush me.
If they knew you were coming ;
I’m sure they would have had held off on their war.
You should have seen it.
The atmosphere around their world darken
As the fire’s began burning upon each corner.
Their , all death weapon’s , turn upon each other.
The temperature froze them
In less tune than it took them to build their entire civilization.
Did I tell you -1 love you ?
You don’t have to look at me like that.
Any way , once they even had interplanetary travel
If you can believe a culture so advance
Would unleash it’s own death upon it’s own world.
Yes it does look so pretty from here.
But not even you , could stay
Longer than a few moments upon it’s sands
Now that they are through.
Can I hold you on our return 1
Yes I do have a one track mind.
Can I help it , if you are all , I ever think of?
I can’t get enough of you in one breath.
hi one look
Or in one night warped in each other
No matter how long , mornings coming , is delayed.
No matter what you say now , you can’t leave
Your out of clean red lace panties
Your clothes are still wet
And I wont lend you any of mine.
I want you to stay.
How long is this portal open in any case?
How long can we love?
How long indeed will you pout
Until we fall into each other’s smile?
OK – OK I’ll take you back , come here , hold on to me. It’s a long way coming.
I HELD YOU FOR THREE DAYS AND NIGHTS WHILE YOU CRIED OVER A DEAD LOVER
I LOVED YOU MORE THAN ANY BEFORE IN THAT MOMENT OR SINCE OUR GOODBYE
HERE IN THESE LAST DAYS OF MY OWN LIFE, TEARS FINDING ME IN RAIN-LESS WALKS ACROSS BURNT ROADS IN A THOUSAND CITIES
YOUR FACE REACHES ME IN MY DEEPEST SLEEPLESS NIGHTS WHEN DREAMING
IT IS A LOVE LIKE NO OTHER, IT IS OF YOU, YOUR FINGERS UPON MY HEART, THAT HUNTS MY EVERY WAKEN HOUR
OH HOW IS IT THAT ON A DIRT ROAD IN A FAR AWAY TOWN I COULD NOT SAVE MY LIFE
I COULD NOT FIND THE WORDS TO TELL YOU, TO HOLD THE MOMENT, TO STOP TIME, FOR YOU TO SEE ALL I AM IS YOU
ALL I WOULD EVER LOVE WOULD BE WRAPPED IN YOU
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS YOU
OF THIS I HATE MYSELF, FOR IN NOT FALLING TO MY KNEES, FOR NOT SAYING HOLD ME THIS LIFETIME
FOR NOT REACHING OUT FOR YOUR LIPS, FOR A LAST KISS IN THIS DEATHLESS LIFE, ONCE YOU TURN TO GO
FOR NOT TELLING YOU, MY WORLD IS DEAD WITHOUT YOUR LOVE, WITHOUT YOUR EYES FINDING MY SPIRIT SEARCHING, OR YOUR HAND FINDING MINE LOST IN MOONLESS FOREST, I AM LOST
AND THAT IN ALL MY FOREVER’S, I WOULD LOOK FOR ONLY YOU, YOUR EYES, YOUR LIPS, YOU
THAT I WOULD NEED YOU TO FIND ME ONCE MORE ON SNOW FILLED NIGHTS ALONG OUR OCEAN BLACK WAVES SINGING SONGS OF OLD
OR THAT I WOULD NEED YOU TO LOVE ME IN THE STILLNESS OF FOREVER, WHERE WE FIRST MET IN LIFE’S’ DANCE, AND FELL INTO EACH OTHER’S SOUL…
Lafayette © 2019
That is the bondage of love
Love that is love wet, pouring
So soft is night you pushed hard to me
Against the death of shadows call
For this invitation, let me be your guide
Your love softly, gently, moving deeper
Spilling over into so many forever’s yet to come
My soul drenched, in such a sweet honey
Sliding from one lifetime to another
Oooh, it is your nectar, I here do seek
My life, saturated
The glistening of such a life giving ocean
Dripping deep within your soul’s love
At your taste, my madness unleashed
Your eyes, my salvation shut tightly
Soaked in passion
This consent sipping of you,
An elixir of life
Thrown open this flask of immortality
Sand yes, I know, you know
Sliding from one lifetime to another
I have no doubt
Still trapped in your chains
My wrist bond to you
In your bonds, to me
Except for the death of all life, once more
I think there no exception, no escape
I too am lost; you are not alone in this
This time perhaps, the last
Said the last, submission to love
A very complicated set of variables, to command
Listen! Hear it?
Beneath stone alter in hidden forest
A flame burns across the bridge now
Who could have known
You would be the one
We’ll take the chariot
The bondage of this love, your love
Against night, it engulfs
Overwhelms my senses
It drowns me, in your sweet fragrance
I can only surrender
As captive, as prisoner
Me the captor, your slave
Look at us here, so close to Darken Gates
Fire reaching cites edge, at rivers end
Sinking into the soul of you
Come let me taste you my sweet
Embrace your lips in this flood…